me sweet?yahh...thankss

2008-04-14T03:45:00.000-07:00

todaYS lecture was. bored. 3 of my frens startin work today.

-nisa-

-nga chi-

-zhan shun-

all the best! keep me poste of any upcomings..! as well as the adventures..!nursin is fun! yeah. choose to believe in it! be it in any department..as long as lives are saved and cared for.

was textin nisa tis am b4 startin work.and i found tat something she said shakes my tots.

``sometimes, really hoped tat time could be reversed.and we shall all be back in nyp's lecture hall, laughin and teasin ourselves away..``

hope to meet u tml, ya? for a short chat!

omg. im alr missin my usual gang..oh... how man?we shall meet up soon. k?

for some confidential reason, i shall name tis person z.

z was one of my colleagues cum fren.jus knew tat her family was kinda... ya, not peaceful.jus like mine.

and mind u, her physical appearance doesnt seems at all, suits her family background.

its as if nothing can influence her.anyway, was being aspired by her strong will.and it embarked on me tat actually my bro wasn a bad guy afterall.

at least, he doesn steal families' valuable stuffs, but worked for a living.

psycho her into thinkin positively.

and i succeeded! oh man!

saw kym! omg. pretty as always.

she: wher u posted to? omg. cant recognised u.

me: haha.. posted back la. 5D ofcos.

she: really meh?

me: ya..she: a suspicious look.

me: -finally give in- k la, im posted to HD.

she: oh. miss you!

hmm.. been enlightened. today.

2008-04-09T04:04:00.000-07:00

hey, im back! decided to revive my blog. stagnant for too long. haha. copy and paste from LJ's. same thing la.. ther it goes..

too busy to blog nowadays..ppl, u gt to understand..!haha.

office week for the first mth. 8 to 5pm ba.. =/-30mins.haha. gained!

saw quite a number of staffs from 5d.. simply put a smile on my face when i saw them..

my preceptor esp. gt her no.. haa. gotta keep in touch with her!

first few days wearin uniforms, nervous and stress! heavy duty man!

gotta expand my social network..! hohoho~~ya. busy collectin numbers.. wat's urs?

it has been confirmed tat im gg into high-dependency ward. aka surgical icu.

will buck up.. lotsa things to learn and master.

passed the resuscitator and safe manual handling.

more to come!lessons and lessons..whew.

gt to absorb like a sponge!and, guess wat?

im colleague with a pri sch mate of mine!

we're like.. oh, hey..! kind of fren..din really know her last time.

but colleagueship still goes on..

gotten one extra uniform for alicia le..

u mus understand the pain tat i went to get u hor..!haha.. better reward me duly man!

i would like to thank some ppl here.who gave me their unduly support, encouragement and care..

esp durin the first few days..

ash, sk, nisa, sm, pei, lucy mama...sincere thanks..!~

i promise tat i'll do all i can to survive icu!

frens, do rem to stay in contacts wor!``

2007-11-21T03:50:00.000-08:00

my off day today. yipee! tat's so exciting. even though tat's lk so normal to other ppl.. keke..

out with pei and ting.

and guessed wat? im crowned the LATE queen!!! keke..

share some photos with u guys ba..

mango ice kacang. tat's pei's order!

normal one is mine.! delicious. yummy! big bowl too!

tat's her with victory sign!

like sisters, dun we?

2007-11-14T00:32:00.000-08:00

prcp has since commenced for bout 3 days alr. feelin stressed comin though im only doin juniors work. ppl's reaction commonly is, oh, come on. u've had it done for two and a half yrs..!

but tis time is diff. we r in-charged of the cubicle tt we r assigned to. for the juniors. luckily we've been ther. staffs ther oso know us. more or less cover for us. gee. tt's the trick.
haben been updatin my blog lk, decades ago.

really busy rottin at home. haha.
though last day for part time job is so long ago...
but still hab to slp till im "full", plus diggin out all my "memories" for past yrs attachment...

feelin good. tml is habin 2 days off. aha.. great!
her r some photos taken days or even mths ago..
feel free to take a glance``!

tat's my dog..! aha.. cute?

let's view him from diff angle!

he's actually of the same height as me when i squart down to take his poto.!

tis angle of me is not bad. quite potpgenic ar? too bad the background is abit unglam``!

my car. aha. would be a better and attractive one if spray pink.!

tp's concert tt i went. suport hariani..! manage to spot her?

my daughter..! isnt she cute?!

amazin pic, isnt it?!

jus lk the background. pink-panter, i am..

look carefully. not easy to come bout. double egg yolk..!

which one is nicer?

gt the hang of posin alr...

yes madam...?

evidence.. went to kbox. i really went``!

my sec sch's band fren. ppl do change. too bad, they refused to take with me. sad.

ice cream tt i ate. tis angle is better. seems appetisin, isnt it?

top view aint really great...

tt's a nice one. able to guess wher's it?

first day of prcp...

better enjoy and act cute..!

if not will bcm lk tis..

2007-10-09T21:24:00.000-07:00

went ice-skatin yest. had a disciple. haha. tt's a light one we had b4 skating. wow. its definitely delicious..

tat's a small video of me, and my disciple. aha..

and tat's her. not bad ba? aha``
===sorry disciple, wanted to upload the video of urs one. but din expect it to be tat long. next time hor?===

sometimes i really think tat in life, u gained some and loss some.
believe in tat cos of the tips incident. was kinda worried wat kind of losses was awaiting me. anticipated. suspense. couldn slept. then finally surfaced. tat was when im findin frens to go with me to skate. the more the merrier wat. but all ends up unavailable. busy. tight schedule. mayb its due to my last min informin them. cant help. but at least tat wasnt the badest tat i've expected.

but jus felt tat frens r driftin away from me. wher r u guys? cant see u from here``
aha`` dunno since when my hp has been so silent. silent till im abit worried. ppl's hp keep ringing and soundin. tat applies for my sis too. but mine... wAs the opposite. tats y i admire her. for habin such a big circle of frens. think bout it, was it due to the gain and loss theory? or was it due to the unconcern-ed-ness i hab for my fren?
is forwardin msg a technique to stay bonded with them? if yes, then im on the rite track..

saw tis uncle at mac cafe. 24hr kind. was eyein ppl hu's finishin their supper and gg kind. target on them by strollin up and down, sittin next to them if ther's an empty seat..
took into action after his target has gone.
gobbled down their un-finished food.
me and disciple was like...

2007-10-09T00:09:00.000-07:00

met a customer who came yest. drunk again.

redded-face. took a step back. afraid.
he saw me and said, its u again, small dwarf!

i was lk, wth...

refrain from servin him. scared. then he asked for xtra cups cos the drinks tat he ordered was lk a big jug. wanted me to drink one cup. asked my manager to come.

when billin, he asked for me again. dwarf. erm...
gave me tips.

a $10 note. wow... wat did i do to deserve tat tips?
shouldn hab accepted it. feel unease after tat.

2007-10-07T00:14:00.000-07:00

had been workin nite shift of late. shagged. cos ppl often says, girls hab to lov urself. prevents gettin older by rejectin nite shifts as far as possible. dun really hab the heart to reject. short-handed. besides, lady boss is pregnant, third trimester le.

first half yest was quite relaxin. so i was lk, chey. so easy to handle. 3 person can alr. who knows, after i've made the speech, more and more customers strolled in. busy lk hell. kitchen almost burst. and tat was the time when ppl blow off their steam. literally.
arrowed and was shot. wasnt intentional. i knew all along. stress.
no matter wat, still felt sad and...
w/o knowin it, tears welled up.
went to the nearest toilet asap to wipe away. nobody knows. hope so.

told supervisor tt im gg off ard 2am. cos i felt tt my presence was not nided. and tt i nid to cool myself off. they noticed it too. let me go.
mayb guilt-stricken. offered to giv me a lift and hab smthing to eat b4 gg off. but i rejected. jus felt emo. pms ba..

one good thing tt happened yest was,,,
ah pek msg me a very touchin sms.
i was lk, omg....! gan dong dao~~~~~~~
haha.

pics taken.

me in euphonium```

in the toilet posing...

dunno if i could hold on till when. jus hope tt they hab hired ppl to take over le.

2007-10-02T20:28:00.000-07:00

had a fright yest while workin. traumtised badly. stunt. hesitate whether i should post tis on blog. cos it might meant business. real business. from the government. but after a while, think should b ok. as long as i dun really spell out in full. black and white.

here it goes. wat actually does XXX means? i've done some research.
their mission.
-To achieve a globally competitive workforce and great workplace, for a cohesive society and a secure economic future for all Singaporeans.

understand tt its part of their job to control the no. of foreign workers in and out of s'pore. but...
wat happened yest was...

i was servin customers. they jus walked in lk nobody's business. tot tat was sm arrogant customers. well, we do met sm while on shift, not to deny. and mine u, theirs is a long line. single file one. so u can imagine how they cm in.. lk a snake. walked to a certain point, unzipped their bags, target us, ppl workin there.

jus literally pushed me aside.
p.s i was still servin customers at that point of time lo.
showed me their pass. wanted to see my i/c.

freakin scary. tts my first time encounterin such things. terrible. cos of their SURPRISE visit, it interrupted our work flow and business as well. our cafe opens till 6am. yest closes early. bout 11pm. as in, closed. lights off.

wat i want to say is, they should hab done tis discreetly. lk walked thru the back door. sm more so many of them, bout 10 ppl. really affects image. although its their normal routine...
but they hab created a strong IMPACT on me, sm wat. and i dun really..... dun really....
WT......

question is, can we c/o to the top? as in, they're gov ppl. and i dun believe they're not in the wrong. partially, at least.

2007-10-01T20:00:00.000-07:00

gt salary yest!! haha. gg to bank today.
yes!!!
sm pic to share. took yest. its cute and adorable..
sob sob.. initially wanted to post pic of doggie tt ive took uest. they're real cute and adorable lo.. wat a waste.
and of a princess cake tt ive gotten. lady boss' daughter bdae..
tt cake is simply delicious. ice cream inside.. yummy!
sad. can only describe here.
and of me with a bag. like gg to sch. back to old sch days..

omg. wat am i doing? deleted sm real nice pic away accidentally. tts the 2nd time alr.. omg!!

2007-09-28T05:41:00.000-07:00

wat a day!
been a packer. followed HCA ard. help to stock up, wipe equipements, and PACKED them..
felt productive. at least gt smthing to do. and not jus plainly b observer.
to b observer is not an easy stuff. had to bcm transparent. smtimes will get scoldin for blockin the way!
but tt was not our intention.
break supposed to end ard 1315. but in the end...
as usual, today was till sister found us, which was bout, erm, 215 like tt..
anyway, this was how we look like, half of us only..

noticed the way they slept.. as if yest was out the whole nite. interestin. isnt it?

gt caught as a whole grp. so consequences not so bad la..
at least we share gettin the water poured on us.. aha. in a way, it is.

story sharin with nang hlaing today. had a tremendous shou huo.
i guess a frenship is made closer. improved. with her.
jus by chattin and sharin part and parcel of our life events.
feels smwat comfortable.. gt sm common things.
jus hope tt our frenship will blossom..!

pic takin session again..
me..

me with nang hlaing

scenery frm ther..

2007-09-27T03:25:00.000-07:00

special day..
staff nurses came to tok to us.. first time in history.. i mean for ot..
dr so stuck up sia.. omg..
they get angry so easily. and mind u, they're male. not females..
females will hab pms, but males.........
sarcastic man..
one incident tt atually proves is..
dr all gowned and gloved up. cannot any touched surface area. but hab to get sm1 to adjust a knob for op.
he said: can u pls turned that knob to three o'clock?
apparently, its turned to bout 2 o'clock la..
then he said, sarcastically: u dunno wats 3 o'clock ar? all wear digital watch.. dunno how to see watch with needles..! i was lk.....

another dr. jus blast his anger whoeva he saw..
i mean, he's alr ready for op, but not the scrub nurse.
din wait for them and start op. then hab the pissed off look. excuse me, its obvious tt they're not prepared man. some more its a major op.. need time to organise the equipements one ma..
no wonder ppl say its stressful to work in ot.. get pissed off easily sia..

anyway, one more day.. tml last day. yeah!!!!!
my life is gg to hab 180 degree turn liao.. jus wait and see.. haha..

2007-09-26T03:34:00.000-07:00

having ot attachment now..
nothing much to do.. jus walkin round.. quite borin..
aha.. saw some operations.. sight of it stimulates my regurgitation.
makes me puke..
disgusting..

slack..aha.. ci din come as often. mon start attachment, but only saw her on wed, today..
supposed to start work at 8am.. but dilly-dally.. after talks, start work ard 9am.
today assigned to pacu. heard tt its gg to b interestin, but to my disappointment...
watched a video.. which lasted bout an hr..
durin video watchin, eyelid felt damn heavy. took a nap. msg fren. chat..

after finishin video, went out to find sis only to hab another orientation.
ci wanted to see us...
and then lunch time...
its our motto. went out early, come in late..
ahha..

took some pics in changin room....
style, isnt it? j- pop..

full length.. head to toe..

with cap.....

orange shoes. me and nang hlaing.. same.. aha``

another occasion. cos pei is leavin. had a mini get-tog at mr lee's work place. tts our drink..

mr lee and photographer.. though its abit blur..

photographer and lucy..! meow!!!!!!!!

salad.. looks attractive, isnt it?

today had a vety er xin's encounter. when takin bus tis mornin, a guy sittin behind me keep burpin all the way.. early in the mornin eh.. thru our the journey lo.. abit disgusted.. wonder if hes drunk???

saw an article in todays newspaper. overduin fines from national library. wanted to recover those amt.
and at tt point of time, i was lk,..
omg, why would ppl wan not to pay?
din expect me to be part of them..
reach home then receive letter from them, askin me to pay the overduin fines..
omg!!!!!!
somethin good from it is, im not the one who borrowed those books.. its my sis..
yes, its her.. i lend her my library card!!
so im innocent.. u've got to believe!!!

2007-09-21T20:04:00.000-07:00

wat a sad day today is. supposed to meet hariani at 745am.
after prepared everything alr, then found out tt she still aslp, in her dreanland still.
no choice, went back to slp lo..

now awaiting for time to pass.. settin off ard 230 to meet another fren of mine to buy clogs for ot attachments.

sometimes jus find tt life is full of contrast and surprises.
met up with 2 guys tt i've known thru net yest.
they're totally diff from their display pic lo..
i was lk, omg.. how come u look so diff!
unexpected sia. one is better lookin, the other one is, well.........
better dun insult.. aha..

anyway, yest was the last day for geron postin le.
lookin forward to ot postin, then 5weeks holi. in any case, if guys, u all happened to come across any job lobangs, do inform me, ya?

2007-09-19T20:25:00.000-07:00

today seems to be an unlucky day to me..
gabra early in the am alr. bai wu long lo..
our blk hab renovations. so will nid to cut off water supply from 9am to 6pm.
tot tat it was supposed to be today. slept till 845am. 15mins to go..
so rushed everything, haben save water wat. in a rush, spilled tmy milo and...
goshed, my nursin uniform oso kana. omg.. its freshly made some more. luckily cup din break..

then after findin out tat the actual date is tml, slowed down abit ar..
wat a relief..!
but still, scald my tongue when drinkin my 2nd cup of milo for breakfast..
aha.. dun u think its an unlucky day for me?

and tat's y i told a fren who wanted to asked me out for lunch later to change the date to tml instead.. aha.. in case...

really scare tt there's more to come lo.. still hab attachment later. 130 to 930 lo.. pray hard tt everything is gonna turned up fine. haha..

jus found out from frenster tt XX is linked to me.. hab one common fren..
and he's married..
ok, giv up on him..
mayb u'll tihnk tt im hyper sensitive. but all tis precaution is done so as not to hab more complications in the future, and unnecessary troubles..
some more he still........
haix. forget it.

2007-09-17T02:17:00.000-07:00

changed cubicles again. sister did jus tat without informin or, at the least, tellin us. haix. dun like it. like dun respect us. see us as dirt sia.
wat r we to her man? rubbish?
feel tat the staff ther say smthing very true. mgt ther sucks. last min changes alot. informin part is minimal.
i oso dunno wat to expect..

took a case which is knid of complicated today. as usual, hab to serve medicine and care for tt particular pt more. writin report was more of a hazard. cos its not the normal, easier and simplified version. rather, its of elaborative type. SN advised me not to take tt case in case of court case. but still...
get guidance from her and ms lee..
so in the end, success..``!

did a trachy ventolin today. it was amazing. dint saw it b4.. feel tt i really learnt smthing today. accomplishment felt.

smtimes quite admire XX courage to speak her mind off wateva tt she think is rite.
abit worried bout my 3yrs bond ther. heard her story. seems quite stressed out. mgt not very fantastic either. OT almost daily. i was like... did i make the rite choice...?

indecisive in which dpt to choose for PRCP.. got to submit the form soon. argh.. ``!

2007-09-16T04:35:00.000-07:00

ya, updatin on the attachment. too long din update since i was on attachment. pai sei.
ok, ther goes..

there's this pt, said tt i was too thin, afraid of his safety when i helped him to stand up. omg!! he was like critising me.. Wat the...

im the dr today.
pt name: meiyi
diagnosis: blocked nose
chief complaint: sob, difficulty breathing, lotsa phlegm.. help...
findings: L- clear
H- S1 S2
interventions: eat more chocolate..!

2007-09-14T21:26:00.000-07:00

hab a busy week. gettin emo too. at a lost.

aniway, initially started with 3days no sms program thingy. then fren said tat since started alr, mus as well extend it longer.. so mon till fri lo.. 5days..
aha.. replied some sms ofcos la.. those urgent ones..

attachment
start to take case on 2nd week, thurs.. haha. though its abit late, but glad tt the staffs are there to guide us along.

p.s. aniway, nisa, u know hu's our c.i? yes, its ms lee..
omg.. seems really fated to her man.. bump into her as our c.i for bout 4 to 5 times le.. and i guess she knows our personality inside out too..``!

and guess wat's her comment to me?

i was like, omg. really??!

supposed to be on geron postin. ward being converted to MRSA ward. so, a bit pity. some more ours is an aircon ward. cold lo..

being in a MRSA ward, is quite stressed up. hab to wash hands and cange PPt after each cantact with pt. tiring. trolley aint supposed to be pushed into the cubicles too. eg, chabgin diapers, ngt, sponging. all hab to used disposables..
but one gd thing bout the cubicle im in-charge is tt it only hab one pt.
so i was like, heng ar. only hab to nurse one pt. clean case too..
but the sisters from others ward come to kpo.. see here and there.
come into my cubicle and said tt i tot u r supposed to wear ppt??
and i was like... excuse me, she's a clean case..!

writing report is oso a tedious thing..

last time sees SN write like damn ez.. aha..
in the end, copy from last report.. haha. play cheat lo.. shhhhh.
dun tell anyone ar..``! haha.

work
then work on thurs and fri..
feel abit awkward la.. i mean after pei hab gone off.
dun reakky hab kaki to tok to..

hab cold and flu from attachment and work..
no choice, hab to earn back my $300 bucks..! haha.. frens shld knoe wat tt means..

results out on fri.
by rite shld receive on am. but din. when i start work in the am, off hp.
abit panic when i still hab not receive the sms alert regarding results..
in the end, pass and clear all..

3033- c
3034- b
3041- c+
3053- b+
3054- b+
3106- b
3107- c
3108- c

tat's my result slip.. haha.

sometimes when im feelin down and out, would feel good tat i hab a good circle of frens who actually cares for me. alot.

really, hab to take tis opportunity to thanx them sincerely. always ther to be my listneing ear, advise for me if i nid, options gfor the probs im facin, and even occsionally asked how i m..

all it shows is tt im not bein forgotten. haha. pleased with their little actions. satisfied.

lastly, three cheers to singlehood..``!

tis is how i look like durin am attachment. emo. haha.

cake tt i bought for sis bdae.. nice, sedap.

food tt i ate for dinner. the presentation is so nice and temptin, isnt it?

2007-09-10T19:53:00.000-07:00

yest on pm shift. first time for tis geron posting. sm more our ward had sort of lk converted to mrsa ward. had to be more careful lo.
luckily my cubicle is normal.
tme sort of lk pass by quite fast.. cos i went over to my colleagues' cubicle to help out. only 4 std nurse on duty lo..
omg.

2007-09-09T18:57:00.000-07:00

opps. sis get to read my blog and even tag along.. haha.
its okay. at least she knows how i feels. she's my secretary aniway..
hee hee.

jus receive starhub bills yest. all my god. i've exceeded my limit. bill exploded liao.. help!!

guess its the highest eva bill for my hp.
cannot take it. hab to cut cut cut alr. tat's the only solution for now.
gonna go into saving mood now.
plan to off my hp for 3 days.. u think i can do it?
well, i'll try.

my sms is bout 1200 lo.. gosh, tat many eh..
my bill is bout $50.. haix..
so frens, if u wanna contact me, jus leave me a msg on blog, frenster, who lives near you, msn..
wateva means.. haha.
the momment u see me online, jus grab me..``!

and mind u, im not hiding or retreating ar.. in case u think the wrong direction. haha..
after much thinking back, i guess the reason for bills exceeding the normal rangr for me is due to the gathering tat i've organised. oh my..
and end up not even hab lots of participants lo.. waste both my time and sms..``!
haix``!

come across tis meaningful phrase. jus hab the sudden tot of sharing..

here goes:
love is patient and kind.
love is not jealous os boastful or proud or rude.
love does not demand its own way
love is not irritable,
and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged.
it is nv glad bout injustice but
rejoices wheneva the trith wins out.
love nv gives up, nv loses faith,
is always hopeful,
and endures through every circumstances.
love will last foreva...

how's tat? aha..

2007-09-08T02:01:00.000-07:00

==========top secret...! shhhhh. welcomed to read, but keep it to urself!===========

fan ar.. tat's all i can described my day.

went to kbox to sing.. aha. realised tat my vocals was sort of lk deteriorated cos long time din practiced singing le.. lost touched..
guess tat was the only happy moment.

was actually habin some family prob. wanted to had a listening ear but dunno hu to turn to.

since mom passed away 12yrs back, i was only 7yrs old.
guess tat was the most blessin and enjoyable time for most kid ba.
can enjoy all the lovin and tender care from parents. but not me.
had to learn to be independent by the age of 7yrs old. dad wouldnt look after us.
shld hab said, he din know how to. refused to let my mum's side relatives visit us too. or at least, tat's wat i've learnt. y? dun asked me. should be due to the fact tat they refused to help when mom is in the critical condition ba.
used up almost all the resources and finance, turned to my paternal side for help. my grandma. which accordin to my grandma, we seldom visited them when we were young then. feel abit shy la..
anyway tat's the pass alr. and it's also the first time i revealed to ppl. bout my past. cos its quite complicated. problematic.

ever since i've learnt to earned money thru part time work at the age of 15, hab to help pay for utility bills. or at least, at the age of 16..
y am i narratin all tis so suddenly. reason is, hab an argument with bro tis am.
initially hab alr decided to share the utilities bill for tis mth. 50%. first time lo. he agreed. then went back on his words.was sort of fed up. gg back on his words. not fair to me.

understand the fact tat he earned less than me. wat can i expect from an army guy with merely the miserable salary of $300 to help out the family.
tat's y i give him discount lo. by rite the sum is $148. each person to fork out one.
after discount, $108.
he said tat it's still way tooo much for him to afford tat amt. can only fork out $20 lo. isn tat .........
i dunno la, u guys be the judge.
i hab been giving the bills for 3yrs alr. he meant tat only he nids to save $$ and not me?
omg. in fact my savings r using up alr.. i dunno. but feel tat its not fair.
im only barely the age of 19.
y do i hab to bear all tis seemingly too-heavy burden..
y me and not my bro? who can escape?
i mean, if possible. we could at least share the burden lo.
utilities bills, town council bill, telephone plus internet bill, my own hp bills, sisters' allowances....
im breathless.. short of breath..

in the past, really. ever think of commiting suicide. due to many reason. but the main one is family.
and dad too. last time he was not stayin with us. came and joined us bout 1 or 2yrs ago. felt tat he abandoned us lo.. i dunno.
had his toes amputated cos he stepped on my sis' earrings which was misplaced.
out of job till now.
not on a good relationship with my granma, his mom. so hab been playin the "secretary" all along. till one moment, i cant tolerate his behavior. then blast my anger on him.
=== care giver strain=== i guess.. frustrated lo.. din tok to him till now. almost for few mths le..
haix..
all tis prob.. really. i pity my hair.. whitenin le.. haha..
over-stressed. feel really comfortable now, after vomiting my troubles...

enough of all those unhappy events. im elated tat 2 of my frens actually sort of like confide in me.. was really happy bout tat.. thank for trustin me..
one of them is

the other one is

pai sei. din took a pic with her.. aha.. tat wsa back then,, pri sch..
relax. at ease. i wont blurt out those secrets de. kept confidential at the bottom of my heart.

2007-08-30T22:29:00.000-07:00

had a packed day yest. really. from as early as 9am till bout 1am. yeah, tat's my schedule for the day.

went to ice skatin at jurong entertainment centre. did my homework alr.
was being accused by frens lo. (they should knoe who im refering to.)
but in the end, my info was correct.
grp of three's.

had to wait gor hua zhong's ppl to had thier fun cos sch booked it one. tat place was closed till 1230pm.
not my fault, girls. their website din indicate``!

anyway, went shoppin at imm for tat period of time.

me with the cute gloves...

both of us with the party hat. which one is more cuter? haha

cant really see the party hat for tis pic, rite?

fan=elegant. agree?

tat's geetha posin with the fan. elegant?

tis was the pic we took when ice-skating. was so shiok. addicted to it alr, i guess.
aha.
tat's my "shoe" for the day. guess my size...
tat was size 4.5. omg...

changed to my normal shoe with socks to buy our gloves. cute, isnt it?
oh, mine. ive such a cute leg``!

with gloves on. pink.

at the ice ring. geetha off the handle. yeah..``!

casually taken...

had two gatherin after tat. was pangseh by them...
dun mention.

2007-08-27T04:16:00.000-07:00

modem spoilt yest. was unable to access internet when i came home after work. haix...

so today went to fixed it.

coincidentally, met esther. haha. fated sia. we meet up first, well before the gathering supposedly on thurs. haha. cant believed it.

gumbling of stomach. went to clementi to catch a bite.
====pizza hut====
tis is it.

soup of the day. haha``

my coke``!

smiling eva so happily. ofcos la. tot tat i'll b alone. nv tot of meetin her ma. so blessed.

took when esther was on the phone. boring. had to wait for the food.

pointing to my face again..

victory.......

taken on a ride home. in bus la... opps, whose hair was tat?

she's the culprit.. intro: my best fren, esther. cute and pretty, isnt she?

2007-08-24T23:11:00.000-07:00

yeah..went to chalet after exam to celebrate and kind of the last get-together for our grp.. tat was on thurs.

me in the train.. whose finger was tat? distort my face..!

nisa cryin. gotcha..``

hana laughin eva so happily in the train..

ana, actin innocent.. haha.. dun come and find me``!

me in chalet's bathroom..

lookin up's angle.. nice? learn from skills. ==mus go heaven==

food tat i ate in chalet. bbq food lo..

can see the chao-da part? haha..

whose leg is tat? omg..

sharin sausages with nisa. somebody xtra behind..

eva see ppl bbq under umbrellA?

in the master bedroom``

========================

before tat was in the library. so happened tat alicia oso go there almost daily to k-books. joined in lo. tis was her ru shan zhen mian mu==

she hor, played with sweets. din concentration. hab to complained to her mom. aunty, its true. see, got evidence lo. haha. no escape for her..``!

tis uncle oso met him in lib. look carefully. saw it?

tat's me in the lib. habin a short break from studyin. info-overload.

isnt tis cute? haha. its someting like a hand-bun.

another pic of me..

went to work in tsc on fri. back to the schedule like last time. time was hard to pass. cos its 7th mth. business more or less affected by the fact. and there's only me and the manager(steve) for the afternoon shift. but its ok, able to cope lo. the sales was miserable lo..

haha. glad to met steve lo. so many mths din saw him le. kind of like back to the olden days.
* as if im very old. haha. grins. gee. wateva.

can anyone tell me the meaning of tis word? in korea one. happen to see tis word.. haha.

and then ting hab to take the shot on tat day too. so help her to meet her creativity. haha. as if. and i think im more like creatin trouble for her, rather than helpin her.
okok, at least the photo hab my hands holdin chopsticks in it. haha.

went for the flag day today. jus found out yest tat one of my fren oso gg there to help out. same organisation lo. tat's kind of like too coincidental le. jus know him, btw. but, tiing different ar. mine is 10 to 1pm. his is 6 to 10pm. haha.

taken during donation timing. bored after a while..
=====hi, would u like to donate....??=================

from other angle..

2007-08-22T19:06:00.000-07:00

今天终于考完了 last paper of the sem.
whew..! tat's it. play and enjoy time..

hip hip hurray. and to those who wanted to meet up with me, do text or tag me and let me know. cos im available and kind of free tis period.
难得的有空叻。。所以你们得好好的珍惜喔。。

haha.. better be fast. if not, later hab to book appointment..!

2007-08-20T23:24:00.000-07:00

one more paper to go.

tat's gg to be on thurs. 0830. omg. cant wait for it to come.

haha.. nowadays, library is like my 4th home. studay there frequently. and fortunately for me, met tis cute guy there. but ppl say he's not handsome. nvm. as long as he's handsome and cute in my eyes can le. haha``!

want to know my house rank?
1st- own home ===sweet home==
2nd- school
3rd- work place
4th- library

today's paper is quite challengin. wat the hell?

alrite. mayb i shld reassure myself tat everything is gg to turn out fine. no worries.
gonna enjoy myself after exam. haha``! busy dating my long-lost contact frens..
haha, if u guys can identify urself...

wat a week next week. haha``!

surprise! surprise! alicia is oso habin her exam today. same timing as me. only thing is venue difference.
shu ling too``! and i guess we r habin it in the same place, same timing.
coincidence sia..``!
later gonna go my 4th house to continue wat's meant for me le..

all the way``!

2007-08-17T23:31:00.000-07:00

very stressed tis few days..
sat for two papers. they arent easy. application.
plus my regular style. last minute study.
add more stress to the present ones. wat to do?
the only thing tat i can reverse, is to go lib and revise..

haha. and luckily gt alicia there. companionship.
not lonely. moral support.
wheneva im like distracted from studies, i'll look at her. so studious.
tat motivates to study even more harder. and of cos not to be distracted.

but yest was such a failure. forgot to relieve myself post exam.
by blastin music off. wemt straight to lib to chope place first despite my sleepiness. and went ahead to study for the next papers.

outcome of the day: cant concentrate. sleepy. headache. giddiness.

hab decided to turn my weekend up side down. study and chiong all the way..``!
hahaha``!

2007-08-12T21:05:00.000-07:00

feel stressed up as i stick the sticker. from blue to red.
======blue symbolises yr 2`````============

=======red symbolises yr 3. more senior. final yr. danger zone. haha``!==========

scary sia. time really flies. 3 yrs of education is almost gone. jus like tat.
think of how we've once enjoyed, joked ard, hab fun and teasin ppl.......
abit reluctant to part with them. dun really wan to bcm so emotional one. and i know its like part and parcel of life. all good things had to come to an end. curtains drawn. and i truly appreciated my frens encouragment and counllin. haha..
so frens, im gonna pester u all to hab a gatherin in the near future,..``!

yeat work at tsc. it has bcm a work-once-in-a-week kind of job to me since the new manager came. i dunno why. anyway, dun hab the interest to cont workin. partly is bcos the salary. but my colleagues r still the best. they r fantastic......
haha``
ok, tis is wat i had for my lunch cum dinner.
=======before...===========

========and after. its nice. but too filling...================

=======and my colleague, wang zheng. had his like.............=======

===========tis is the after pic...==============

omg. can u believe it? he;s such a rice-eater. and worse still, he aint growin fats..``!
tis aren fair, hor? wanted to post his pic one, but hba to abide to his wish..
so...........

2007-08-10T21:16:00.000-07:00

yest was a very memorable day.
sort of a last day in sch thingy.
gonna miss my classmates...! oh dear..

had a class gathering. and tat was pretty fun. a pic takin session too``!

wanna see them? fine. go ahead. this r from my hp cam. still gt several from my frens. so dear frens, if u happens to hab a pic tat has got me in there, pls forward or send them to me. thanx.. happy memories r meant to share..``!

keep ur eyes wide open.. haha..``!

========alone. posing. cute hor?===============

========me with rj==============

==========with nisa, in fatc tis is one of the pics tat im very satisfied...=======

===========with sun juan==============

===============with nang nliang, my future colleague``!===============

===========with hana===============

==========with ana. sweet, isnt it?=============

============with syafiq. so last min. haha...==============

===========with zhan shun===============

====our dear ms jenny. catch her sitting while in lab. haha. ohhhhhh, i see so she was enjoyin tis.......=======

=========enjoying a song samg by duet achao and rj.. surprise item``==========

==========the rest r grp pics.. tog as a class. tis one is snapped in the skills ;ab``!=========

=============taken outside lec theatre==========

=========taken outside of tutoral class=======

==============karate.. performed by us. haha``===================

=========our normal gana. grp of 4..`========

============not again. haha. bahind scenery is really very nice. tis pic aims to captivate our memory..``==============

=============fishes in the pond. can u see it?==============

===========scenery. too nice. mus capture it. cannot resist``==============

=======lovely..===========

2007-08-08T21:56:00.000-07:00

yest went back to sch. tot tat i could study. in the end updating my blog.

omg. wastage of time man.. although my dear zhan shun has been urging me to study..``!

ok, tat's tat. our main motive is to collect goodie bag and eat..``! haha..

foc wat..!

luckily we went to the exhibition. they teach us some of the diy to keep our skin smooth......... wow, wat a gain``!

took a pic there. guess its meant for ppl like us hu like to take our own pic one.. haha. and its meant for mediation too..>

damn comfy``!

next, comin up is the nurses' day cum national day celebration. me and zhan shun deliberation "starve" ourselves till then. cos we'll eat to our fullest then. haha``

and tat's the cake they prepared for us.. nice and big..!

we r literally staring and eyein at the food. obviously. instead of lookin and enjoyin at performance. alrite..

this r the pics of the cakes... its simply yummy``!

last but not least, the pic is meant for my dearest nisa. secretly tot a pic of a staff workin in ane department. tot nisa would like it. got goaty``!
P.S. nisa, give me ur comment, ya? haha``!

2007-08-07T22:51:00.000-07:00

多么沮丧成人世界并不像童话
王子公主很少喜剧收场
不是只要够勇敢够善良
就会有仙女帮忙实现愿望

慢慢懂了其实失恋是一种力量
因为孤独让人可以回想
是在哪边该下车却没下
才到了一个不想到的地方

有时候爱是粉红的羽毛
谁捧着都有微笑的眼角
才看他在手心沉沉的睡着
一起风又醒了那么轻飘飘的走掉

我觉得我是雪白的羽毛
向往着超越自己的渺小
成为寂寞城堡关不了
能带给人幸福的青鸟

2007-08-07T20:13:00.000-07:00

scared. frightened. shaking.

was horrified to find out tat i hab query kidney infection.
according to the
tat's a pretty common things experienced by teenagers of my age..

back to the beginning. when i woke up yesterday, felt tat smthing is amissed. not rite. jus dunno wats tat. and i forward some msges to mr lee and my colleagues to inform then about my condition. and that im afraid i hab to stand then up due to my unease. pre- tell la..

ok. shed tears. tremendously. infront of my group mambers.
ashamed. i was. and it was not one time. several timeSSS..

felt really lethargic when attending our skills lab from 12 to 2pm. hab to stand most of the time.
luckily i can sit on the chair. got excuse. din really absorb much. and the pain jus din wanna went away.

went to see dr at polyclinic. the only thing tat my frens dunno, is tat i actually walked there.
yes, the route tat we walked when we catched alone..
tot tat i can tahan. who knows.. it was extremely difficult to continue. had to walk pretty slow to accomodate the pain my back and stomach is giving me.

make it to the polyclinic.
went for triage. cos really cammnot afford to wait for tat long queue. dun even know when its my turn. qualified due to my high temperature. haha..
and for god's sake. its 39.3. i tot it had turned better cos of lab condition. air con...

referred to ttsh ane department. dr cant do anything in polyclinic.
went there. alone. my god. i tot i was strong to handle this alone. was proven wrong.

cried uncontrollably when i called home too..``
the moment dr there called my name, i was weepin like mad. tears jus dun obey my command. drop like its raining.

scared of the unknown laying before me. tat's wat i felt. nided emotional support. luckily kak, nisa and my dearest family members called and msg me freq to console and chat with me. tat helps. really. thankful gor that small gesture tat u guys had 4 me.. was touched.

no wonder ppl keep on sayin tat we had to undergoes a test or mishap to know who's our true fren, and those who truly concern u, care for u............. and the list goes on and on...

had ultrasound, kub. haha. but rejected fleet enema. requested for lactulose instead.
they cant do anything bot to respect my rites..
haha. plus im a student nurse. knows the thing. was labelled by them.. in the ed dptment.
"std nurse"...

this are the pics tat ive secretly taken in the ed.. shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh``!
========my i/v site cum line=========

=========tats to differentiate between me and the others.=========

=======had nothing to do. bored. listening to music. and take pics..=========

==this is from my view. covered my leg with blanket. pretty cold there. in the observation rm.==

========my belongings was by my side. bware of theft. haha=========

=====my name cum wrist tag. haha. u guys hab??===================

==another one====

=======tats the sticker 4 identifyin pt from relatives. supposed to be stiched on thr blouse one. but sticked it to my hand for better view.=====

finally was being discharged ard 915pm. still had to queue up for the medicine...

went home and slept very soundly..

wanted to catch this show. seems nice. esp gt jay chow in there.

===========the pics tat they've gt to publised=========

=============he playin the piano. cool and charmin, isnt it? =====

=========ridin a bicycle. romantic eh... i oso wan``! ===========

==========holdin umbrella and walkin. how sweet. guess it feels great. =========

===========talkin. so shy. but i like this pic the best..!===========

alrite, tat's all..

2007-08-05T20:07:00.000-07:00

meet with eliza today at cwp 4 lunch..
haha.. finally meet after the 3yrs of separation..!
oh man, its so shiok,,>>
pics taken to commemorate.. haha``!
which one do u think is the nice one?

ate at yushinoya. lunch with her. isnt it nice? haha``! will go and eat it more often``!

and tis, was the product.. not made, but bought tog with eliza.. ahha~~
one each.. oh, how sweet was tat..!

scenery from the 6th floor.. isnt it a nice one? go green``!

posing with mannikin's body part...>>>>> tat's the arm``!

the product tat i've come out with for fyp. proud of it. haha. it's a brochure``!

this one is made by hana. paper bag.D.I.Y one lei... nice ba?

the rest is plain posin while nisa and ana is away for grp discussion. haha.
no chance to take pic and disturb me.. yipee! hurray``! haha``

alrite, finish updating 4 the day le. gtg to study.. haha. exam comin..!

2007-08-04T05:02:00.000-07:00

on sat~~~
received a very meaningful msg from my sis, pei. decided to live life till the fullest. no regrets next time. and to cherish wateva u hab now, currently. so next time when we've lived to the expected age, and passed on, we'll b able to report to our respective planet and stars which we came b4 reincarination. of wat fruitful and meaningful things we've achieved and learned on earth. content of the msg translated by me. the actual one is:
曾经听人说过：“每个人都有属于自己的星球，当我们完成了在地球的任务，我们就会回到那颗本来就属于我们的星球。然后，写一份有关地球之旅的报告。。。”
朋友。。。
当你仰望着夜里的星空，你是否能轻易的就认出属于你的那颗星呢？
只要你用心的过每一天，用心的做每一件事，用心的去爱，用心的活着，有一天你的心一定会告诉你，那颗闪闪发光的星星。。。就是你啦！因为当你用心的在生活，你的心和星就会一样努力成为一颗耀眼的星星！加油噢。。！

meaningful, arent it?

tat's the pushin factor tat made me decided to go for the palliative program last min, which is held today at dover park hospice. luckily i went.
meet them up at 9am. while waitin 4 the rest, took some pics..
mouth gg to burst~~~

zhan shun lookin emo~~~

reached there le. pics taken too..``!

===========================================================================

then went thru lec and intro to palliative care by mr poon. watch this touchin movie. forgot the title alr. haha``!

went to interact with patient. abit nervous. then the pt whom we r assigned to say tat he was in a foul mood. dun wan us to interview or tok to him. alrite. there goes........

hab nasi briani 4 lunch. accordin to them, it was the best in spore.
so..........

after lunch, help to decorate stuffs.
and i hab came out with this idea. tat's my hand..! creative? haha..

and the outcome ish........
this. noticed my "hand", or my work??

=========================================================================
nice rite? proud sia..

then went to interact with them again. to our surprise, they're havin a bdae party..
it's his..

the food which was prepared by the kind-hearted volunteers... tat's so kind of them``!

foods being delivered to those patients after the party. to those who cant join in the fun. RIB. CRIB. to weak to walk. etc.

=====================================================================
and we sang lots of songs.....
and they ate lots of food...
=====================================================================
b4 biddin goodbye to dover park hospice, took a pic of the reception area. hab a flower there. nice.

======================================================================
on the way back, noticed the plants there full of radiant...

tat's me after the program. somebody's behind me````!

yeah. finally. my hp has got a new blouse``! finally``!

===================================================================
nice?

tis r the pics tken a few days b4. no time to upload ar..
so..............
reunion with missy``! saw her when i went back to ttsh to take goodie bag.

tis is the poto taken then. bout one or two yrs back.. how sweet and innocent it was back then`` noticed the change?

pics taken in the toilet..
hmm, it seems tat i loved to hab the photo taken in there.. if u hab been following my blog`` haha..``!

with the eye in exhibition. isn it cute and big??!

taken on fri. jus b4 the stimulation lab. hab to wear uniform 4 the action. haha..
ana was not inside cos she lost her way``!

drawn by my son..! cute, isnt it?

created a new hair style. how much would you rate it?

tat's the desserts blanja by kak.. haha``! yummy yum yum.

lastly, ends off by this funny and cute video...

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2007-08-01T23:29:00.001-07:00

this video is one which i find it hilarious.
if happens tat u guys r in the emo kind of mood, do feel free to view it.
hope by then, u'll feel happy and high``

moral of the story: never look down on our dearest pets. dun think tat size din really matter.
our grp's theories... nisa pls...
haha``!

2007-08-01T22:26:00.000-07:00

very bored + embarrassed today.

forgot to switch hp to silent mode.
went into the lec hall with it on normal mode.
tat's the amasin part.
wheneva things r alrite, nothing happens.
once there's something tat i've missed, things start happening.

received mr lee's forwarded msg.
and there goes my ring tone.
it's crystal clear in the lec hall.

oh man, tat's so pai seh....
face jus went red. guess so........

ok, get over and done with.

our schedule is such tat we've gt 4hrs break in between the lecs.
dunno how to spend the time.
so went to bone lab.
tried every means of entertainment, butboredom still exists.

then get to know tat geetha is not well.
half of her face is swollen..
omg..``

said tat it's due to her wisdom teeth.
so wat exactly is tat?
Wisdom teeth are third molars that usually appear between the ages of 16 and 24 (although they may appear when older, younger, or may not appear at all). They are commonly extracted when they affect other teeth—this impaction is colloquially known as "coming in sideways."
Potential problems caused by the presence of properly grown-in wisdom teeth include infections caused by food particles easily trapped in the jaw area behind the wisdom teeth where regular brushing and flossing is difficult and ineffective.

hope tat u'll get well soon.

2007-07-31T22:50:00.000-07:00

wednesday.

planned with fellow grp members to watch tog after school.

will update u guys bout the movie after tat.. some says its worth catchin, while others say the otherwise. god knows.

no wonder ppl keep tellin me to jus follow my own intuitions and feelings. in another words, follows wat ur heart tells u.

sometimes it's jus too difficult to decide and follow.
another ppl might get hurt as a result of my own thinkin and doings.

cant be so selfish, though.
tat's why i tend to consult ppl i trust and take their opinions into accounts.

feels tat i havin a disease, or rather, a prob.
feels like eating and munchin foods this few days.
but my stomach is not really growling, nor hungry``!
jus feels tat i hab to control my appetite and go on diet b4 i regret.

anyway, today had a balletin regardin who's supposed to take on which role on friday stimulatin session.

got the role of passing over report.
great``! less pressure. haha.

ya, went 4 the movie with my gang. was nice. and wat makes the atmosphere more thrilled was the grp of girls sittin behind us. they r real good anticipators. even b4 i, the timid one, started to scream and get frightened, they r weel ahead of me. haha`` makes the whole cinema sounds. alrite. took some pics when we went to the toilet. it was so nice and sort of grand. cant help but take some shots.. haha``

ana joined me too``

background is nice, isnt it?
haha.took tis at home with the loveky "flower" tat i got in sch.``

nisa took tis pic of mine when i jus came out from the toilet. i was shocked and surprised. can see? haha~

pics taken while habin grp discussions 4 the past few days. too busy to upload in time ar``

nisa hugging the skeleton in the bone lab.. her best buddy la~~

me habin the police gear. smart rite? cool man..
wanna to be a prison officer next time, when i finish the bond in three yrs time.. haha``
this is the pics tat took after presentation. i was the one who kena pasted the ribs pic. haha, ribie..>>

2007-07-30T23:42:00.000-07:00

hurray. @ least, very least, that our last 2nd proj is over and done with.
curtains drawn.

one last proj with my grp and tat's tat. full stop. end of our partnership. haha.

RA ar, ppl below the age of 21, pls refrain from seeing it. haha``

hab a bit of giddiness. dunno wat's wrong with me sia. hope not gonna fell sick. tat would b a disaster. haha``

2007-07-30T00:41:00.000-07:00

today was an average day.
mainly rushin proj as tml is our presentation.
haix..

found tat this phrase is esp true. like it alot.

tat's for a laugh. haha``

2007-07-28T05:10:00.000-07:00

wake up early. 645am.
rushed out of the hs ard 715. tot tat im late.
but hariani is later than me. while i was at semb tat area, she msg to inform me tat her sis has went into the bathrm well b4 her. and tat she will b done ard 830. tat was a lie.

by the time i saw her shadow, its ard 855. haha. way back from the time tat we r supposed to meet. 8am.

9 plus. reach wgs. first thing i did was to head 4 the ladies. berat. guess eaten smthing from the mac tat was not well-done.
started playin inst. there's only a handful present. and we r supposed to b formin the alumni band..``!
guess i had a hard time jugglin between those musical notes.

at the end, we chose 5 pieces to play on fri. for teacher leavin band. i wasn involve in tat. cos fri couldn pon. it's jenny's class. and im chosen 4 the stimulatin thingy. will be under the eyes of my classmates. scary sia. being video taped down...
while headin toward's hariani's hs 2 put her inst, i told her,
"i guess im the only brave soul whom, in the 3 yrs, din touch trombone, and was so eager 4 the alumni band, attended it."

waited for hariani outside her apt while she went into her house 4 some adjustment.
waited, yet again. took several pics to minimise boredom. haha``

had something tat makes my blood boils. tat happens ard 3 plus.
gt a msg from bro askin wher me and sis were.
gt a call from dad. askin the same qn.
it all boils down to not possessin a key. dad was act quite sad to see bro sittin @ the doorstep waitin 4 us to return. but bro dun mind. dad makes a big fuss out of it.

so i had to call gm. knew tat she was @ home. told her to open the door and let him in. she said she wasnt aware tat he's outside. been on the phone all along.

mins later, she called me and demand from me the actual story of wat dad had told me.
feelin exhausted and disturbed, my natural reaction was to avoid discussin those sensitive topics in ht e public. sort of like hang her up.

upon stepin into the hs, her face is as black as charcoal. after a few mins, she was screamin at the top of her voice. she was, angry. really.

and i was obviously pissed off. hey, im innocent party. not involved. and dun wish to get involved. neither do i wished to b the MIDDLE man..

as a result of intense mood cum hidden emotions, i, break down. and i cried.

stories, stories, stories.
heard 3 different stories tat arise from one incident.
amasin, isnt it?

tell me, who am i supposesd to believe? tim, dock or harry?
hate tis kind of event. too eventful. too stressed. coulnt take it anymore.
therefore, i hab to tell u guys. gonna announced it.............=============
tat im a peace lover`` yeah``!

2007-07-27T02:20:00.000-07:00

emo day for me. frens oso noticed it.

smart. haha. perhaps im v the obvious.
cos wheneva im emo or pissed off, will b very quiet. isolate self. dun like to tok.
wat else, fren? haha``
ya, and ofcos speaks less than four words per reply. two, perhaps.

the story....
was at the bone lab earlier for grp discussion. no reception naturally.
dad called me a few times but to no avail. desparately, he called my bro hu's in the ns. cant help much act. mayb tat's to allay his anxiety....

the best he could do was to msg me, really.
to nisa and ana: guess the moment u guys read till here, will hab the urge to say

haha. alright, back to the main one.
called back dad. gt a scoldin from him. asked me y i bring keys, cos he din hab any.
"wat if there's a fire in the house? im being locked up..! will get burned.."
wat crap is this?

he means to say tat ppl hu gets locked up will b burnt to death if there's a fire?
oh, pls, 4 heaven sake, dun he knows tat there's a thing on earth, tat ppl named it =======water=========

so off i went. skippin lec, which wasnt my intention. took a cab and rushed home like hell.

btw, forgt to tell u guys tat it's raining...
in the lift, received his call.
say tat grandma had reached home alr. wat the hell``

anyway, go home. by tat time, my blood is already boiling. hot.
so quarrelled with him. on the corridor. cos really, it wasnt my fault. but had to compensate by rushin home. hu he thinks he is? and im not his maid. or wateva u called it.. cant possibly command me ard..``!

tat's it. spoil my day. really.
there goes my friday``!

can i really smile so happily....?

below r some of the happy pics tat was taken..``
i was the supposedly "horse". can see from nisa's happy expression..``

this one taken to comemorate racial harmony. 3 races present plus the background.. haha``

2007-07-25T23:28:00.000-07:00

post some videos for u ppl to view nad enjoy``!
think once in a while, ppl need to relax too.
the first video guy is quite cute. agree? wow.....

this one is bout harry potter one. catch it``

sometimes jus find tat life is monotonous...
keep repeatin the same thing over and over again. day in, day out.
but no matter wat happens, it still hab to go on..``

heard a piece of great n good news.
NKF is recruitin nurses. seems to hab lots of advantages.

CAREER OPPORTUNITY :

Dedicated to the cause of transforming and saving lives, we are seeking suitable local nurses to join us. The suitable candidates will enjoy the following benefits:

1. A highly competitive remuneration package
2. Training
3. 11 working day fortnightly
2. No night duty
3. Sunday off
4. 23 Dialysis Centres located conveniently island-wide to choose from

sounds too good to be true..?``!
haha. plannin to go there after my 3yrs bongs with ttsh.
cos there's one NKF outlet near wher i stay.
tat's so convenient. plus there's not a nid to work nite shift``!
nonetheless, hab to gain the experience of workin in a general ward first``!

ok, guess nursin this career hab jus too many branches out.
will consider other options along the way``!...

howeva, nursin is nv an easy job. at least not as simple as wat the public thinks and sees.
nid kinda lots of knowledge. hab to go 4 constant upgradin and attend lots of courses to keep out with the latest technologies.``

rite? fellow nurses, or nurses-to-be?

2007-07-25T04:15:00.000-07:00

had a wonderful time today. go round collectin gift.. ahha
took some pics..
jus wanna share it.
haiya..
cant find the pics. other time perhaps..
haha. below r some of the pics taken on sat. cgh mass casualty exercise.

some grp potos...........

>>>>>>>>>>>and more.............

some formations we had.

And here's a video tat i strongly feel tat ppl should watch.....

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2007-07-22T20:42:00.000-07:00

had a bad day yest. cranked up man.
mgr din inform tat i was supposed to work. end up supervisor called.
last min work sia. luckily i hab nothing on tat pm, if not i'll feel damn guilty 4 sure. cant possibly leave my colleagues to die of exhaustion, esp so since it's sun...``!

howeva, things often bal in life, @ least tat's wat i believed.
u lose sm, u gain sm.
bcos i wasnt informed and was sort of lk late 4 work when i dashed there, ppl there was still pleasant to me.
even ate sm special stuffs 4 lunch cum dinner. haha.
had sm delicious desserts too``! yummy yum yum..``!

relatin back to the incident, was actually quite upset.
how can tat mgr b so irresponsible? and expect part-timer to know their schedule?
esp ppl lk me. hu works once or twice a week..? din even bother to call.
and when i called, he referred me to his subordinate. din even bother to check, or even, glance @ the roster 4 me. tot i was very free. tat's very sad.
jus hope tat tis knid of incident jus wont happen eva again.
i dunno y, but had tis strange feelings tat im not gonna hab peace with him ard.
and 4 heaven's sake, i hab only work with him 4 once``!
and the kind of image he's projectin it to me din seems great.
frankin speakin, if he din bother to giv us, part-timers a considerate tot, or at least show sm concerns, we're gonna QUIT``!!

and the end result he shall take care.
the reason we still hang on is due to our gg-to-b-mum's lady boss. hu treated us quite well.
haix, life sometimes ar...

but due to the incident, i managed to confided to a few.
they seems to help. cute and wonderful frens i hab..
haha.
tat could at least bring a smile to my life``!!

2007-07-21T03:51:00.000-07:00

had an excitin event today.
joined the mass casualty thingy.
here are some of the pics taken there.

here are some of our grp pics taken. almost one completed class. haha.
feel really great today. happy. as well as exhausted. ya..?

being the casualty, was pushed to the a&e dpt of cgh.
n my case scenario was supposed to be a middle-aged female lady, had a rt loin perforation.
omg, the pics they gave was simply grossed.
as it was sort of emergency, was assigned pac 1. haha.
bein pampered. was on the trolley. act we purposely chose tat one. jus wanna lay on the bed. not doning anything. tat was great.

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while waiting, observed wat the nurses and doc was doin n discussin.
they simply let us wait as we, "casualty" flodded their ed.
haha. in the end, alot of us flood their places. and tat was our motives.
haha.
luckily it was only an act. if not, i guess i'll really b gone.
waitin time is at least half an hr, man.
tat wait can cause a man's life.
opps..! it's woman's life...!``
haha..

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more pics here..
while we r waitin 4 our turn bein the "casualty"

wardrobe malfunction discovered by nisa. haha. pai seh sei..
look carefully, see if are able to spot tat hole..``!

wantin to capture nisa n ana's candid photos. but to no avail. always let them spotted first. in the end, shot them with their pre- anticipated pose``!

2007-07-20T01:44:00.000-07:00

passed. yeah..``! haha. can relax 4 a while.
been bz these few days. with all those skills and presentation..
and ofcos lookin after my dad.. haha``

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wat a narrow one i had.
skills assessment today.
not fully prepared.
dunno y, sometimes life seems to be playin a trick on us..
i wasn really prepared 4 cvp. but chose tat 4 skills.
haix. ironical.
this is for my dear nisa.. haha. touched? haha``

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sec band is plannin to hab an alumni band. tat's great.
good news. but i think it started abit too late sia.
timing abit not rite lei.
the nest sem is gg out 4 attachment le.
but still can manage 4 practice in the holi la.. haha``
dun really know if i should join.

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and the next thing is, im scared. afraid.
tat my skills deteriorated. hard to pick up.
afterall din touch trombone 4 the past three yrs alr.
haix, shall see how it goes lo...
fated to join or not...

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2007-07-17T20:25:00.000-07:00

Open your heart and experience wonderful things. Encourage others to open their hearts too!

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**open ur heart to beauty
**open ur heart to love
**open ur eyes to tis lovely world
**and to blessing from above
**open ur eyes to the future
**open ur soul to the best
**believe in urself and the days to come
**and let heaven take care of the rest!

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i love tis poem alot. jus hope to share it.
meaningful, isnt it?

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2007-07-16T19:07:00.000-07:00

moody recently. frens all bz. nobody to tok to.
lots of things happening. too much 4 me to handle @ one time.
feel really exhausted.
wanted to hab a good long rest.
feel as if it has been a long time since i last smiled heartily.
mayb it's due to the unknown of the future ba.
nobody can anticipated it. not even the god. wat's , more, us?

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whwneva i m feelin low
i look ard me, n i know.
there's a place tat will stay within me
wheneva i may choose to go
i will always rem the city
thru every street and shore
sail down the river which brings us life...........

familiar ba...? had the urge to sing it. but no mood. so type it lo.
hope tat ppl hu view my blog will sing on my behalf. haha``

diagnosed with mrsa wound yest. couldnt discharged yet till it has subsides.
i dunno wat to say.
its like the hospital is like my 3rd home.
2nd home is nyp.
haha. been there almost everyday now.. (3rd home)

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hp spoit long time ago. now house phone oso caught the 'virus'.
haix.. really, sort of pissed of, man.
things seem to b gg the wrong directions.
everything seems to b fallin apart.
how i wish someday someone would jus happen to come by and pass by those super sticky glue..!!
guess tat would make my life easier.

sometimes couldn help thnkin. if i had somebody to lean against, tat would b such a good and comforting things.

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ok, imagine. haha``
he, would b someone i desire. mayb come to my rescue ridin a white horse.
with a arch on him, seems so bravery. and i would so damn secure.
if i feel like cryin or in a sad mood, he would embraced me in his strong and muscular arm.

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wow, jus dreamin only. but could really feel tat strong energy embracin me.
i guess im jus lookin for an escort. haha..``

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Never Give All The Heart
Never give all the heart, for love
Will hardly seem worth thinking of
To passionate women if it seem
Certain, and they never dream
That it fades out from kiss to kiss;
For everything that's lovely is
But a brief, dreamy. Kind delight.
O never give the heart outright,
For they, for all smooth lips can say,
Have given their hearts up to the play.
And who could play it well enough
If deaf and dumb and blind with love?
He that made this knows all the cost,
For he gave all his heart and lost

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2007-07-15T20:30:00.000-07:00

one word to describe. tired. been tired these few days.
no time to log in to friendster n blog to update.
if given s choice, still wouldn. haha.
dunno why, like lost interest in this kind of things alr.
no longer attracts me, i guess. haha``

anyway, since im here, might as well update 4 frens concernin me.
bz visitin my dad in the hospital n workin n studyin as well.
guess tat alone makes me spinnin like hell alr.

hurray..~```! ana is finally comin back tml.
back to the 4 of us alr.
been moody ar..
nisa and gang should know n understand.
===================A.D================
cannot stand it alr. gonna burst.
the best things to do when faced with this kind of accident is to remain calm and not say a word. mayb tat would help.
@ least, to me, it is.
and tat the anger n frustration in me wouldn increase,
unless we tok.
refrain.
haha.

yest work is like bz. hell.
2 servers plus one supervisor. luckily boss and lady boss come to help.
ppl keep comin in. m proud of them to b able to cope woth crowds of customers.
and tat we earned 1600 by 4pm.
haha. three cheers to sweat``!

2007-07-11T05:59:00.001-07:00

had an eventful day.

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he was hospitalised, again.``
and this time, condition seems to be pretty serious.
serious till he had to had them amputated.
cant take it if i were him.

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he's so brave. my hero.

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really, its traumatising.
imagine tat toe of urs had alr been with u for like half a decade.
and bcos of an accident, u hab to say goodbye to it.
its a little unbearable.``

howeva from the medical point of view, i do encourage him.
@ least there's lesser chance of 'next time'...``
so, get well soon``!

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had an accident discovery today.
tat im actually fortunate.
to hab such a caring grp of frens surroundin me.
n i hab taken them 4 granted those days back.
im here to thank u guys out there, hu supported me,
gave me moral support.
really dunno wat will happen to me without u guys.

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realised tat he actually had nursin fren.
wonder whether he'll..............
trustable? or m i over-worryin? think too much ba..
alrite, gonna do some breathin in n outs exercise le``

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2007-07-06T05:36:00.000-07:00

a busy day. eventful ones.
dad was d/c frm hospital. nided some coordination to fetch him home.
called my uncle to fetch. gotten scoldin from him.
claimed tat ha was not informed of the event. ====unhappy=====

next, is our grp presentation. proud of the outcm.
our leader is fast n swift the comments n qns posted by classmates.
============ salute ==============
it was quite a success..`` haha``

embarrassed in class too. get called by lecturer. din really know the correct explanation. so.........,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,``````````
but we still had some fun durin skills lab. pics taken. our grp's pic.

granny wanted me to accompany her to buy some stuffs.
indicates me, and only me..
wat the...........
haha. mayb she misses me lo..===========consolin myself============

then gt a called from hospital. claimed tat my dad has went off b4 collectin medicine. so went extra miles jus for collection.
haix, spoil the nurses' reputation sia..``

when i gt home, granny gt supicious. tot tat i went out with him.
haix, all i can say was tat she was overly suspicious over me.
tot tat i hab nobody to turned to. and tat only he can bring me laughter.

======== tat's jus an illusion ==============
wrong..! wrong..! im single now... hey hey``!
haha..

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2007-07-06T05:31:00.000-07:00

tis is a song tat's worth listenin to.. haha..``

发现爱 - 林俊杰 & 金莎

林俊杰: 叽叽喳喳路人小孩
林俊杰: 噘嘴的你站在露台
林俊杰: 阳光眯着眼看我们
林俊杰: 同时也发现爱

金莎: 嘀嘀咕咕我该不该
金莎: 让你看穿
金莎: 冰淇淋的默契就是爱

金莎: 努力想藏这刻曼妙
金莎: 不觉中悄悄融化了
金莎: 变成最幸福的味道
林俊杰: 忘了烦恼可爱多好
林俊杰: 不需要说什么
林俊杰: 呼吸之间就尝到了你我
金莎: 心电感应
合唱: 我看见loves
合唱: in the end

林俊杰: 丘比特胡闹唠叨的月老
林俊杰: 缘分来了他们谁也管不了
林俊杰: 就放手去爱
林俊杰: loves in the end
金莎: 花开得很好风吹得很好
金莎: 只要你在什么都好
金莎: 爱的香味随空气飘

2007-07-04T20:25:00.001-07:00

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yest deleted pics tat is taken in sch.
shit. so saddenin.
haix. but gt a gd advice from nisa.
so today gonna take pics like crazy.
will b uploadin pics.. haha```
to compensate for the loss of deletin the pics.
it was accidentally done. haix, better dun rake it up.

saw dr panikin yest on show.
deal or no deal.
he's cool and cute. humorous too.

was busy sendin out forwarded msg yest nite.
tat has more or less bcm my habits.
to pass those meaningful ones ard. sharin, its called.
in order not to be selfish. haha``
but a pity. i gt most of it in chinese, nt eng.

so to my dearest non-chinese frens...
so sorry. doesnt mean to neglect u guys.
i promise tat i will love u guys more.
n to forward u guys those msg if i eva hab one.

to my chi frens, tat's a clue to u guys.
send me those msg in eng``
haha. and did u all hab the sense of being recognised by me when u received those msg?
cos i hab one fren tat says those r pretty lame.
dots. alrite``
all in all, efforts r done to make sure we r still closely bonded n stay in contact.
hope tat u guys understand my yong xin niang ku``
haha``

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2007-07-04T06:30:00.000-07:00

really happy today. met up with my old fren. din see each other for like a decade.
went for blood donation with him too.
he was like freakin nervous n scared.
make me wants to lol..``
but the both of us din manage to donate.
im underwt. he's on medication.
sad, the both of us.
but get to see how ppl donate theirs.

went to amk hub to shop ard.
and he treated me with some finger-foods``
=======so nice of him``==============
haha..
went to visit my dad today.
had an op. seems to b recoverin well.
but i guess i make the situation worse.
he gt DM. i bought kaya n choco waffles 4 him.
ate it and his blood glucose shoy up stat.
complained and blamed me b'cos he gt an insulin jab in return.
too bad.. haha..

2007-07-02T20:00:00.000-07:00

dad went into a&e dept of ttsh yest. got referred from GP.
hab to be admitted to ward and is due 4 op today.
feel unfilial and sad. cos not ard when he nided emotional support.
went to work for merely two and a half hour when he gt himself admitted.
a last min work kind of stuffs..

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guilty. hope tat everything is fine.
din sleep well since then.
worryin. worried. worries.
may the god bless my dad. may he hab a speedy recovery.
and tat nothing major will happen to him.``
he's a gd father. not the extremely good type.
but at least he has done his part in bringin us up.
@ the very least, tried his best.
feels weird when dad's presence is absence.
guess he really sort of brings security to me.

din realise tis point till yest nite.
omg, my dad means alot to me.
so to god i plead. pls do not take him away from us.``

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last but not least, jus hope tat he'll hang in there``

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2007-07-02T00:14:00.000-07:00

haha. plannin to donate my blood on wed with fren..
tat's something worth lookin forward to.
wed.
took several pics with hana today.
had some happy occasions``

below are some of my individuals pics..
wow wow`` im abit vain wor..``

2007-06-30T02:45:00.000-07:00

jus got pri sch pics from my best fren.. haha.
wanna see how cute m i?

still gt a bit of resemblance, hor? tat was sweet, isnt it?..``

!!

2007-06-25T23:47:00.000-07:00

initially was plannin to go out with my pri sch fren.
who knows when i was attendin class, my phone vibrated.
she msg. said tat she dun hab the mood to shop.
haix. sad. was excited n even dressed till very nice.
4 ur info, i even wore a dress eh.. sob sob.
tot tat we will had an enjoyable evening...
haix. but it's ok. thamx 4 giving me a break.
at least u r considerate. willing to give me some time to spend with my family.
haha.. can oso rest @ home too..``
tat is actually a technique to give my bad day a twist``
good, isnt it?
jus hope tat we will hab a chance of gg out.
do contact me wor, if u see this blog.
haha. hope tat u wont b upset tat i post it..
if u really mind, pls, do rem to let me know.
i'll edit it, ya?

tis is actually written by my dearest fren, nisa..
haha....
^i love u,meiyi!^

haha. dunno whether it's miracle or not. received her msg jus as i was bout to leave sch. so in the end, we still make it to the dinner.haha.
ok, so next time i shall post things here. since it's like so miraculous``

2007-06-24T20:43:00.000-07:00

haix, mayb i shld hab attended the tok in sch which is scheduled on 30th may.
on whether im really ready 4 lov.
im oner really gd example.
too eager 4 one relationship, end up being lost in one.
haha. isnt it ironically?
guess it took some time to heal from it.
and i need time to process oso.
tat's me..``

2007-06-24T04:57:00.000-07:00

my idiot sis. tryin her very best to seize my new bag and try it on..``
the other sis is tryin to eat up my choco..``
tat's.......so........ kind of irritating``

had a busy day. been workin n workin.
haha. but contented. cos had a pri sch gatherin on last fri.
i was the organiser lei.. chey..``
haha.. glad tat we had some connection in some ways``

exchange frenster add, email n phone no.
yeah yeah! tat's the way to keep our frenship gg endlessly``

had a shock of my life on fri pm.
learnt tat my 1st fren is actually datin my 2nd pri sch best fren.
but both of them kept it to the lowest profile possible.
tat's so............... minimal``
well- kept. i should say.
coincident seh, nv expected it to bcm tat way.
lots of qn marks floatin now.
nobody to ans it. not even the person involved is willin. haha..``
i guess some times in life, things hab to happen in tis kind of format.
surprise plus shock. to make our life more fun and worth it.

2007-06-18T01:48:00.001-07:00

see doc today. gave me alot of medications. and it costs $13++...
haha. today my cough seems to worsen. normally gt nite-time cough.
today even day time occurs.
tat's so sick.
cough till my lungs and heart damn pain.
got impact there le.

to nisa and frens concerned bout me:
tot of posting his pic on my blog one,
but i'll respect my grandma's decision.
n tat's to remain as normal fren 4 the time being.

so tot of postponin it to a later and stable date..
haha

hab mt ftt today.
the girl sittin beside me failed. (cos i peeped, @ her screen when she's gone, but not the ans..``)
guess wat?
i flunked too..
so guys, u oso hab to comfort me, ya?

2007-06-17T05:31:00.000-07:00

feel sick today.
hab been feeling unwell 4 the past few days le.
he said tat mayb its due to the bad weather.
and i said, when ppl starts to fall ill, they'll blame it on the weather.
how weird.
mayb this kind of logic and reason will give them a sense of....
hmm, defense or rather, excuse 4 being sick.
haha..
initially hab to work till 9pm 4 today.
but requested to knock off early.
partially is due to my uncomfortable-ness, oso due to my family.
last min inform me tat we actually hab a dinner.
omg. and tat everybody hab to attend.
in the end, when i got there, they hab finished eaten.
looks like im goin there to clear the plates 4 them.
haha......
duh...?
doesnt seem to hab much enthu on work nowadays.
hmm, wonder wher's my once enthu heart 4 chiongin when i work there...
gotta find it back...

2007-06-16T05:41:00.000-07:00

haha, today when we were like boardin the bus, sm1 called me.
gosh, she's sm1 familiar. my grandma.
and guess hu i am with?
its him...```!
oh no, they met 4 the first time eva.
initially plannin 4 them 2 see each other on mon one...
hu knows they r so fated..`` wahaha..

before bidind goodbye to each other, he did smthing.
guess wat?
a kiss on my cheek..``!
wow...``!
tat was so unexpected n come so surprised.
aniway, its sweet.......

now awaiting 4 mon arrival.
meet the parents' session 4 him..
haha.
hope u can pass..```!
haha..``

2007-06-14T20:31:00.000-07:00

haha.. yest was the 2nd time we hold hand.
feels good. secure. haha..
jus hope tat he'd gave me a present.. particularly soft toy..
haha.. hope so.. if not had to prompt him..``
had a sore throat and almost lost my voice today.
it's terrible``
"he" sms me. ask 4 forgiveness.
dunno whether i shld or not.
afraid tat i'll give him the wrong idea.
had some prejudice against him..
haix.
currently nid a love n fren consultant..``
available?

haha, i know tat my close frens r keen on seeing his photos.
after all haven shown them yet.
i'll try to take his pics and post here.
alrite?
so keep coming back 4 updates, ya?
haha..``

2007-06-13T20:08:00.000-07:00

haix, work midnite shift yest.
wast really tat tiring le.
guess it was the lack of sleep tat matters.
had a few symptoms of sickness appearing.
looks like im gonna b sick anytime from now..
haha.....
something happened while i was working.
not errie stuffs. but relationship ones.
why does he like to flirt tat much?
dun even care if he hurts the others..
din even tot of others n seek permission from them b4 doing it.
it really scares me alot.
tat he's like so unfamiliar to me all of a sudden.
his face, seems so far away n blurred with mist.
his thinkin, seems to b eva changing.
his doings, is like a sharp hurtin blade.
his eyes, seems to b able to see thru me.
so scary tat i was afraid to b with him, alone.

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jus realised tat persuadin ppl oso need some skills.
nothng in tis world is ez.
ppl nid to undergone some training or experience to gain it
no pain, no gain.``
tat makes sense..``

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2007-06-10T20:13:00.000-07:00

friends are there to let you be yourself and to accept you for who you are now and whoever you maybe tomorrow. Its important to remember that people change and grow, and as friends we need to let that happen; we need to lend our support, not our critism.

2007-06-10T02:02:00.000-07:00

cAN u believe it?
after work today on bus:
i saw an uncle wearin jus socks and lifted his feet of the ground. put it in the seat..
and there's a smelly and soury smell. or rather stink.
guess the aroma comes from no wher other than his grey socks.
tat was a bad experience.
as i was too pai sei to change a seat after noticing his posture,
i had to tahan his aroma tat was literally floatin to the other aisle of the bus, 4 bout 15mins..``!
oh my goodness..``!
break record alr..``

2007-06-07T02:42:00.000-07:00

Suddenly, I turned ard n my best fren was there
The sky was blue, the sun was bright, n I dint nid any1, bcos I could take on the world.
I was ready 4 anything n everything
Except
Wat happened next.
There was something behind me.
Suddenly I turned ard.
It was you.
You wanted to make sure I was okay.
You tried to stop me from takin crazy risks.
I didn’t need help.
I didn’t want a friend.
You were there anyway.

Later on, it was pouring rain.
I needed someone, and I was alone.
I couldn’t handle anything
Before
What happened next.
There was something behind me.
Suddenly I turned ard.
It was you.
You were ready with a much-needed hug.
You forgot that I ever abandoned you.
I needed help,
I wanted a friend,
you were there when I needed you.

Whenever the weather changed,
When I was strong and when I fell
I could always count on you.
Until
What happened next.
There was something behind me.
Suddenly I turned ard.
It was you.
You were crying and seemed very alone.
You couldn’t make it on your own.
I could give you help.
I could be your friend.
It was my turn to be there for you.

2007-06-06T20:18:00.000-07:00

wahaha.. had a fun day yest.
not exactly fun. gathered. old fren founded. joy.
not only one, but a grp. thru her.
had a hearty chat thru phone after we departed.
really man..!`` shiok, is the word to describe.

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now plannin a mini gathering.
jus hope that everything turns up well.
that they agreed to participate.
afterall, we havent seen each other for upteen yrs.
9 yrs. to be exact.
exaggeratin? nope. that's true.
haha.. tis gatherin is indeed that impt to me.
4 me to re-recognise their faces and know them like i used to.
mystery. whateva that's going to happen.
let it unfold itself.
let nature take its course.
up to the god's fate to organise.
be it a good or bad outcome.
im ready to accept it.
or rather, i had a back-up plan.
wahaha..

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2007-06-05T22:32:00.000-07:00

excited is the word. my feelings.
gonna meet up my promary school mates later on.
long time din meet up alr.
best fren since pri 1.
mixed feelings. dunno whether we hab anything in common to chat.
jus hope that heaven will b kind to us.
sunshine weather..~~!``
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2007-06-05T22:29:00.000-07:00

Do you eva feel like you are the only one giving in a friendship?
Do you feel like you’re thr one hu calls, you’re the one hu drives n you’re the one always listening, advising n caring?
If u find yourself in a one-sided friendship and u r beginning to hab feelings of resentment, sometimes jus sayin something will make a difference.
Sometimes ppl jus don’t realize they r being selfish n some honesty makes them snap pout of it.

There r oso cases wher if they cant hab it “their way” then they aren’t interested. If tis is the case, then I would say u r better off ending the friendship. There will b a time when u r the one hu needs support, n u certainly deserve to hab a fren hu can giv it to u.

2007-06-04T18:42:00.000-07:00

2nd posting..``
living in the present matters.
why lose today by thinking about tomorrow?

always worry about what others think of you and you'll be a slave..!``

why live in the past or in the future and miss out on today?``

2007-06-04T18:32:00.000-07:00

yest had an alcoholic drink.. stomach feel so airy sia..
hot and airy.
tat's the reason ppl dun like to drink.
dun understand y ppl like to drink alcoholic drink in high content some more.
drink till they mabo.. till they're drank.
perhaps they r troubled by the earth's prob.
$, relationship, work, wat else?
they jus dun understand it's them hu will get hurt @ the end of the day.
wat 4 do something so silly..?
no gaining frm it.
in fact, u will lose things more than those non-alcoholic.. haha..
tendencies of gettin liver cirrhosis is there.
side effect of alcoholic is there.
headache, withdrawal symptoms, wateva u can name it,..
no solvin of prob when u practically drown urself with alcohol.
things wont b alrite the next min when u r conscious.
alcohol aint magic pills.
this r the things tat alcoholic dun understand..``
the taste is bad.
the instant the alcoholic touches ur taste bud..
bitter. more bitter. very bitter.

2007-06-03T20:41:00.000-07:00

haix, life's complicated. it's not @ all those fairy tales. wat a great world it'll b if tat eva happens. fortunate i am to hab quite a no of confidante.
presence to tok is a fortune.
presence to absence is misery.
hard n rocky life belongs to us.
ultimate survivor @ the end.
smiling does not means happy.
neither does sad means prob.
family not necessary means warmth.
envy her 4 bein strong to the above mentioned.
u r my hero.
respect n support u..``!

2007-06-03T20:24:00.000-07:00

well, today im well-dressed up. prepared to go catch movie with "probator".. haha..
guess only nisa knows the meaning of it.. alrite..
haix, din really mean e things to turn out tis way.. plan to go out wif my pri sch fren de.
p.s. shimin, if u eva see tis blog, do forgive me.
haha, cos waiting 4 ur reply 4 too long.
and @ tat time, he called. so might as well agreed. haha..

2007-05-31T19:33:00.000-07:00

thank you my fren
for jus being you.
for jus being there
when i needed you.
4 givin n giving
without a reprieve.
4 givin me sm1 to trust n forgive.
u gave me ur shoulder,
ur ear n ur heart.
n by tis u kept me frm fallin apart.
u shared with me some
of ur wisdom n mirth
n made me feel like
i was someone of worth.
b'cos u were there
i'll always b grateful.
n b'cos u r my fren,
i'll always b thankful.

2007-05-30T21:17:00.000-07:00

you were there for me
when i needed you to b.
when i felt like i had nothing left,
@ least nothing i could see.

u were there 4 me
when he called me on the phone.
the nite he made me cry
you wouldnt let me b alone.

you were there 4 me
thru days, and weeks, and months.
when sadness would befall me
to my side u'd always rush.

you were there 4 me
when i finally could smile.
i got pass all the heartache,
though it's taken me awhile.

you were there 4 me always.
when i called 4 u, u came.
n if eva u shld nid smone,
u know i'll do the same.

2007-05-30T04:58:00.000-07:00

i know tat tis world
isnt always the safest place
i wanted to write tis down
bcos we could die tml
n you'd never know
kus how much you mean to me
u hab always been there
ready to offer an ear, a hand
or a shoulder to cry on
the happy times were great
the shared secrets n giggling
the hours spent doing research on ica, practisin skills
and just hanging out
but u pulled me out of bad times, too
no matter how angry i was
how stupid i acted
how depressed i felt
you and ofter you
stuck by me thru everything
(and i do mean everything )
you always seem to know
when to give advice
and when to just listen
sometimes you r my alter ego
my better half
and sometimes i am yours
i hab envied you
and been angry @ you
i hab stolen ur spotlight
n hidden in ur shadow
we hab bickered
n shared hugs
we hab screamed n yelled
and on occasion, cried
but thru it all
i hab n 4eva will
love you as my best fren..``!

2007-05-28T19:44:00.000-07:00

live s one long queue.
we queued to go to school,
to buy tickets,
to take public transport... ...
how come nobody queued for my hand..?

2007-05-27T21:35:00.000-07:00

right brain, left brain, whole brain.
wat the heck..!
i'm told that we only use 10% of our brain!
90% lies dormant.
no wonder my teachers say i've no brains..!

2007-05-27T00:56:00.000-07:00

shit..! shit..! my ass is still painful from the fall tat i've sustained yest during work..
no energy to work sia,.
and i got 2 gifts from ppl there..
wahaha.. make a guess..``

2007-05-24T20:39:00.000-07:00

put ur needs first

putting ur needs first means being true to urself n surroundin
urself with ppl who will oso b true to u.
puttin ur needs first means acceptin only appropriate behavior frm others n allowin only respectful n carin ppl into ur life.
puttin ur needs first means understandin tat u deserve to b happy, no matter who u r, wat u look like, how smart u r, how much $$ u hab, or wat kind of clothes u wear.
n u can only b happy when u pay attention to ur deepest feelings n u make a decisions to honor ur needs.

2007-05-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

what you do today

break away from all tat's real.
forget how u think, forget how u feel.
live life today, forget things gone by.
live ur own truth n not e world's lie.
create a life of living, b spontaneous n brave.
go off e beaten path, find ur own road to pave.
4 if u live life 4 u n u alone,
u'll b ur own master n create ur own throne.
e world ard may tell u wat to do or say,
but tml is too worrisome; concentrate on today.
things may hab gone wrong in e days of e past,
but he who looks at yest always finishes last.
learn frm ur mistakes n move on twice as wise.
help those less fortunate, smile at those u despise.
n once ur life is over, once ur journey's is done, u'll know u ran e race, n u'll know u've won.
4 yest is hopeless n tml's faraway,
but in e end it'll matter wat u do today.

2007-05-22T20:29:00.000-07:00

freedom is something we crave for, but when given freedom, we may not know how to handle it. to hab freedom can b quite a frightening thing. it means u hab to choose, the decisions are no longer made for u, u must decide wat to doand b held responsible or accountable for ur actions..!

2007-05-22T20:21:00.000-07:00

haix, yest din go catch spiderman.. dunno y severe headache. n when i woke up the next day, my skin is damn dry..! it's like pealin off..!``
goodness me, dunno wat happened. mayb it's due to the bad weather. haha..!``
it's like a moody day for me, ya? haha. but as im oso a superwoman (nick- named), will try my best to make a happy day out of a dull ones.. wahaha..
stay HAPPY..!``

2007-05-21T23:53:00.000-07:00

haha..! later gonna go out with handsome and superman to catch movie on spiderman..! but the timing is kinda late.. start ard 815pm.. wahaha.. will see how it goes. hopeful i wont doze off, wahaha..
hab been comin to school ard 8am for 2 times in a row le.. quite tired..! but will still cheng dao di.. all the way..!`` yeah yeah!!~`

2007-05-20T20:53:00.001-07:00

failed apparwntly.. wahaha..~~`!

2007-05-20T20:47:00.001-07:00

jus tryin out to see if pic can b uploaded..!``

2007-05-20T20:36:00.000-07:00

2007-05-20T18:39:00.000-07:00

yest heard n saw something tat im not supposed to hear or see..!
``see no evil, hear no evil, think no evil..!``
one is from my colleague n the latter is from my close fren. haix, why mus the world b so polluted with all these filthy thingy? if i hab a choice, i would rather not know. would rather choose to stay in the darkness. jus found out tat i really hurts to find out the truth. dun really know how to face them anymore. politics here and there. jus hope tat my future work place wont b as complicated.
another colleague of mine helped me to see my future yest. it's quite bad. haiz.. he said,
work: it's probably destined when i was young tat nursin is my occupation. one and only. thru'out my entire life. main job. busy n dun hab a fixed schedule.
love: tat my first love wont last long. i'll stay with my 2nd one instead.
life: tat mine is actually quite a short one. i'll meet with a major illness at one particular moment of my life. if i recover, then will leave longer. if not...
do u believe in all these fortune- tellin?
i dun really believe. but no harm believin, rite? tat's y ppl keep sayin, enjoy life when u can. cos u really dunno wat's going to happen tml..!
so i've decided to live my life to the fullest..!
a warnimg to my frens out there.. wahahaha..!

2007-05-20T18:20:00.000-07:00

ii guess the little word "if", like the other word "but", is so powerful tat i think bout it quite a bit. ii rem the days when ii was young and ii often hear others and myself sayin, "if u dun give me tis, ii dun friend u." frenship, n so much of wat takes place ard us, is done based on an "if u" condition.
"if u scratch my back, i'll scratch urs."
i'm glad there're ppl who do not live within tis framework. they do things b'cos they wan to, not b'cos they hab to! there're no conditions attached to wat they do. if only more of us can bcm like tat, if only more ppl were liberated to act freely rather than with fear or motive!
yes, if only, and it'll remain "if only" if we sit ard n mope..!

2007-05-17T20:01:00.000-07:00

i think tat ppl r funny. each person is different. some hab such short fuses tat they blow up eva so often;
yet others hab no fuse at all!
some are so full of themselves yet others hab no selves!
people are unique and tat's wat makes tis world so fascinating n interesting.

2007-05-16T22:01:00.000-07:00

A: i mus knock some commonsense into her
B: knock, knock, knock, no wonder im dented all over
C: knock some commonsense into me? you've been knocking for years but without much sense.
D: you've hardly any sense left bcos you've knocked all urs away..!

2007-05-15T21:54:00.000-07:00

wat is as big as a hippo, the same shape as a hippo, but weughs alot less than hippo? make an intelligent guess pls..!

2007-05-15T21:53:00.000-07:00

wat will you get if u add ten and one four times?
make a guess..

2007-05-14T20:31:00.000-07:00

yest had napha test. sad sia, get c.o.p.. din even get bronze for tat. we run non-stop sei. for 2.4km. nv even brisk walk eh.. in the end, it's a cop tat we've gotten..! haix.. n i've gotten muscle ache all over. think tat's the reason, tat's y i woke up ard 5am tis morning. cant seem to fall back to sleep. eat my ever earliest breakfast in my whole life.. early in the morning of 15.5.2007.
ard 5am. first time in my life. hab to record down somewher..
wahaha.. anybody earlier than me..? but ofcos i did a very stupid thing after tat. after one hr of wakin up, i went back to sleep ard 6am.. haha.. like pig rite..?

2007-05-14T20:23:00.000-07:00

haix, tot today will b a great day for me.. till i received a sms from my fren sayin tat i was heartless.. to reject xx.. din really know how to handle it.. no feelin for him, n tat i dun really wan to hurt him by sympathisin n go along with him. he'll get hurt even more. jus hope tat he understand n not keep on tellin my fren tat he was sad..!

2007-05-14T00:12:00.000-07:00

lethargic today. hab napha test later on. hope everything is smooth later.. feels very fat recently.. haix. dunno why oso.. tends to touch tummy often. haha.. dun ask me why..
perhaps jus so tat i could check on it often. n tat hopefully one fine day, my tummy will be flat as i hoped it is.. haha.. is tat possible?
hope so.. guess tat's every girls' dream ba.. to b slim n slender. to becm a perfectionist. but i guess the reality is often harsh..``
`mirror mirror on the wall, who's the fairest of us all..?..`